Flashback Friday

While searching through old photographs of myself to be used for some of our wedding decorations, I came across one taken in September of 2003. It was my first day of high school. Thinking back, I've never felt any smaller or larger in size than I currently am. I've always just felt fat. I knew I was bigger than other girls my age, and therefore I was always self conscious. I never liked myself. As I have aged, I have learned to love myself, no matter what. Big or small, I know that I am smart and important and, best of all, I am loved. It just makes me sad to think that I thought so little of myself back then, especially considering that it was probably the smallest I have ever and potentially will ever be in my adult life. If only I could give the confidence that I have now to my then self.

I have been doing really well with my personal goals the past few days. I can't say that we've cut back on eating out as much as I'd like to admit, but at least we're trying. I have tried to stay away from fast food, but it's such an easy answer. On the way to work or from, a quick stop by the drive thru and ta-da! I'm not hungry anymore. I can at least say that I made more healthy choices when doing this than I would in the past. I really would like to give Neal prepping a try, so that I have things to take on the go. The trouble with this for me is how inconsistent my schedule is. From day to day, I could work early morning to early afternoon, or late morning to mid afternoon, or late afternoon to late night, or really any combination of the above throughout the week. I can't seem to find an option that works for me that doesn't include eating out. I'm struggling with this one. On the bright side of things, I have hit my personal goals everyday for the last week. My water intake is at a solid 100 ounces everyday now that we're back at work again. I have been keeping up my fitbit and haven't forgotten to wear it a single day since I got it. I'm averaging about 6000 steps per day, and even hit almost 9000 once last week. I'm working desperately to get this number up, but again, I'm having trouble finding consistency to get myself on somewhat of a regular schedule that I can easily follow. I have opportunity to change this, though, and hopefully I will get some good news at the end of next week. I don't ask for it often, but all the good luck and well wishes you can send my way will definitely be appreciated. We're headed to the grocery store this evening. I'm hoping we can do as good this week as we did last week. Our goal, again, is to shop only the perimeter of the store for as many items as possible and to stay away from the frozen foods. Also, we're still trying to prep one meal to freeze so that we have a small stockpile of things to choose from on lazy days. Still looking for recipes if anyone has some good, healthy crock pot meals.